well..i'm here after a month i guess.. alot has been happening around but the most important thing is fiishing the blessed HND 've been doin for the last two years...where did i start and where have i ended up? god i still wish i had done fashion design instead of interior...its not that i regret it or anything..and i'm really good at it..but i still wish otherwise...certain things in life can't be changed and u live the rest of ur life thinking of what might have happened? the 'WHAT IF' that doesn't leave the mind once u screw up....what if i had done fashion instead of interior..what if i had told the truth to my parents that i wanted leave...what if i had told that good for nothing bastered that i'm through with him when i knew he was cheating? what if i had stood by my word when i DID tell him off?..............................................god help me...

i know u're somewhere there god listening to all this...but don't u think u should give me another chance? ok ok....so u have given me well and enuf and i shudn't be complaining...and i'm not complaining u know..i'm just saying wat comes to my head..i know u have a very secial plan for me but when is it gonna happen? its already happenin? really? u're serious? wow! then how come i dont see anything?????

things ar gettin abit boring...god y do still hate that guy? i should be forgiving and forgetting rite? thats what i promissed and intended to do.. but then why do i still hate him so much...........

help!